It’s that time again, New Year, new you!!! Exciting OR perhaps for some, absolutely terrifying!!!
Well, here is something I have learned that has weighed heavily on my heart. A few years back, I ventured out of my comfort zone and decided upon a very reputable e-commerce business that has been number one in North America for several years. It’s absolutely life changing and shattering glass ceilings as I write. But, as many of you know, I am a mother and I’m also a military spouse. Being a military spouse can be a lonely road, with constant change and the shove into being so flexible you don’t know what month or day it is. It is often difficult to stay connected and have access to the support needed to really run a business, but I had to give it a shot.
Now here’s the heavy part…I tried this, and I failed.
Let me repeat, I tried this and ‘I’ failed. I’m almost certain I failed on purpose because I absolutely understand the business model, I understand how life changing it could be, and I understand that it takes A LOT of work. It was never a get rich quick moment or something I hoped would happen over night; it was a moment of trying to change that daunting trigger in my soul that wants something different. I can honestly say that I somehow lost myself in trying to figure out how to make this work. My background is in healthcare, and although this business involves personal care, I just wasn’t reaching a part of the beauty that we all seek when stepping outside of our comfort zones. I didn’t feel authentic…I didn’t feel confident…and I don’t actually understand my purpose in regards to being this type of an entrepreneur.
So, where do I go from here??
Perhaps there are many of you, feeling just as I have and almost ashamed of not knowing what you should be doing next. And I feel there is simply no timeline or requirement for any of us to be or do anything that doesn’t set our souls on fire! There is no one checking items off a list to determine if you’re cutting it. Because let me tell you, YOU ARE!! I’ve discovered that we can’t please everyone, we should always be true to ourselves; be kind and do the best we can. And when the going gets tough, don’t be afraid to ask for help or cry…or do absolutely nothing. But, don’t also allow yourself to stay in that zone…YOU DESERVE MORE!! And, you’re worth it!!! The beauty of this time of year, where new resolutions are created, goals are written out, and a plan is drawn is that we aren’t required to have it all figured out. AND we’re allowed to fail, over and over again!!
I’ve realized that there is a lot that I don’t know about being an entrepreneur and decided to take a step back to learn and grow. I’m reading more, attending events online and in person, listening to podcasts and just doing my own research. And although I have found myself stuck trying to figure out where to go from here, I know the experience I bring, the ways I continue to grow, and my ability to see things in multiple perspectives, and I know that this is enough!! I haven’t had the role of a mother and military spouse long, but even so, I have discovered how powerful this role can be and I’m starting to realize the POTENTIAL I can have as a resource to this community (and anyone else that can relate).